mY dIaRY

I may not have a lot of fame
Nor a mansion on a hill
I have no real fine gifts to give
There is nothing to reveal.

I do not have a lot of wealth
But I have the things I need
There are those who have most everything
Whose lives are full of greed?

I have a kind and loving heart
With gentleness doth reign
There are those who have no heart at all
And send out lots of pain.

I have a wonderful spirit
That will never grow jagged or old
There are those who have no feeling at all
Their days are dark and cold.

I have a wonderful pair of legs
To help me get around
There are those who have no legs at all
To lift them when they’re down.

I have a wonderful pair of arms
To give a hug or two
There are those who have no arms at all
To feel the love I do.

I have a wonderful pair of hands
To let me work and play
There are those who have no hands at all
To help them through the day.

I have a wonderful pair of ears
To listen to the rain
There are those who cannot hear at all
The splash upon the pane.

I have a wonderful pair of eyes
They have beheld some beautiful sights.
There are those who cannot see at all
Their world is black as night.

I have a wonderful sense of smell
And enjoyed the aroma of flowers
There are those who cannot know this joy
And miss life’s fragrant hours.

My life has been a rainbow
With only a bit of strife
Today I counted my blessings
I have a wonderful life…

I saw an angel last night,
Standing by my bed.
She came over, sat beside me,
And gently stroked my head.

She said, do not be afraid my child,
It was only a dream.
What you though had happened,
Is not as it may seem.

The Lord your God is with you,
As your sleeping through the night.
He stands beside you every minute,
And keeps you in his sight.

God said, I will never leave you,
Because you belong to me.
As your sleeping through the night,
Next to you is where I’ll be.

Ketika aku pikir sudah bs menjalani smua ini dengan ikhlas dan sabar ternyata aku blm bisa..
msh sulit untuk aku melupakan masa lalu..tidak mudah utk bs melupakan smua itu..meskipun aku yakin smua ada hikmah dan pelajaran yg bs aku petik, tp aku ga bs begitu saja menghilangkannya dr otakku.

aku dah berusaha mengenyahkannya dr pikiran dan otakku tp ternyata aku ga mampu….whats happen to me? why i being like this? i know this is my false,but why ……..

rasanya tdk habis pikir, aku dsini spt ini apa kau yg ada disana merasakan apa yg aku rasakan setiap hari?? apa kau juga berpikir spt yg aku pikirkan??

aaaaaaaaaaachhhhhhhhh…..rasanya sudah bosan, muak dgn hidupku spt ini.kapan aku akan merasakan kebahagiaan, kapan aku bs seperti mereka, temen²ku yg bs tertawa lepas…..
aku ga tau ……

Jika kau merasa lelah dan tak berdaya dari usaha yang sepertinya
sia-sia.. Allah SWT tahu betapa keras engkau sudah berusaha.

Ketika kau sudah menangis sekian lama dan hatimu masih terasa
pedih… Allah SWT sudah menghitung airmatamu.

Jika kau pikir bahwa hidupmu sedang menunggu sesuatu dan waktu
serasa berlalu begitu saja… Allah SWT sedang menunggu bersama
denganmu.

Ketika kau merasa sendirian dan teman-temanmu terlalu sibuk untuk
menelepon… Allah SWT selalu berada disampingmu.

Ketika kau pikir bahwa kau sudah mencoba segalanya dan tidak tahu
hendak berbuat apa lagi… Allah SWT punya jawabannya.

Ketika segala sesuatu menjadi tidak masuk akal dan kau merasa
tertekan… Allah SWT dapat menenangkanmu.

Jika tiba-tiba kau dapat melihat jejak-jejak harapan… Allah SWT
sedang berbisik kepadamu.

Ketika segala sesuatu berjalan lancar dan kau merasa ingin
mengucap syukur… Allah SWT telah memberkatimu.

Ketika sesuatu yang indah terjadi dan kau dipenuhi ketakjuban…
Allah SWT telah tersenyum padamu.

Ketika kau memiliki tujuan untuk dipenuhi dan mimpi untuk
digenapi… Allah SWT sudah membuka matamu dan memanggilmu dengan
namamu.

Ingatlah bahwa dimanapun kau atau kemanapun kau menghadap…Allah SWT
maha mengetahui.